Indifferent

I realize that I am pretty indifferent about stuff right now. I don't really care that I don't have a full time job. I don't really care that my apartment isn't unpacked, I don't really care.

I hung out with Teetz tonight. He called to see if I wanted to go out to dinner, his treat. We went Macaroni Grill at South Point, then went to the GAP. Tobes, I had salmon, it was great. Teetz and I were trying on clothes, and I was looking in the mirror and at GAP I used to wear a large, sometimes an X-L, depending on the cut of the shirt. I now wear a medium, or probably a small in some of the shirts even, and Teetz said I have started to lose all my curves. No fear, the ass is still there and isn't going anywhere for a long time, but I was looking in the mirror when he went back into his dressing room (he looked SO HOTT by the way, I pick out the BEST clothes for him) and he's right, I am losing them. Strangely enough, it doesn't bother me.

I found two cute shirts. Well, technically, one cute shirt, two different colors. I probably won't ever wear them, but it's okay, I like shopping when I am depressed, it makes me feel, well, not better, but at least it makes me feel something.

Adam will be home for good by July 4th. I am looking forward to having my complete set of 'good-time drinkin' buddies' back. Granted, Silas is a great drinkin' buddy, but he and Adam are a set, and when the three of us can go down to Jack's and drink our whiskey sours and hang out like old times, it'll be a lot fun. I am just looking forward to him being home safe and sound.

Teetz's birthday is coming up in June. We're going to have a rematch of the contest we had last year when I kicked his ass and he ended up being a little sleepy when we finished up at Duffy's for the night. Apparently his brother and his brother's girlfriend are coming for this though, so I will have two Teetzen's to compete against. Our Teetz won't be a problem, his brother could be a challenge. Teetz said the night would probably go something like this : "Yeah, I'll be passed out on the floor in need of CPR and you guys will be telling me to suck it up because you still have six rounds to go. It'll be AWESOME." Either way, it WILL be awesome because last year's birthday was good and this one will be good too.

I have a feeling that June is going to be a pretty tough month for me, so I kind of apologize in advance. Only kind of, because I think it is still okay for me to be sad, though I am sorry for those of you who have to listen to me be upset. Pretty much last year around this time was when we met, and everything started happening, and sometimes that really gets me. First dates, first kisses, being 'official', even first 'I love yous'...every one of those things happened in June. One of two things will happen: 1) I will be really really drunk in order to survive this month or 2) You won't see me because I will be curled up on futon watching Friends, The OC, and Buffy while bawling like a baby. Both sound fun.